snips and snails

When I started this second pregnancy, I felt different right away.  I felt sicker and more tired, and generally more emotional than I did with Alice.  I first chalked it up to a more exhausted body, and the years that have gained on me since Alice’s birth in 2003.  I have generally been more nervous and worried with this pregnancy than my first as well.  The years between Alice and this pregnancy have seen much decline in my confidence in my instincts.  Especially when those instincts have to do with my body or what it is able to do.

When I started to get the “feeling”, the something that told me the sex of this baby, I started to doubt myself.  Since my c-section with Alice, I have had trouble trusting my feelings.  But yet the something grew stronger, and became the thought that woke me in the dead of night, whispering “boy” across the bedroom.

Well, this baby has given me my first birth present.  A confirmation of the feeling.  A strong hand patting my back, reminding me that my instincts can be right.  Gently nudging me, pushing me to trust what I feel.  It’s a beautiful beautiful thing – for this little tiny teeny baby to help bring me back to a time of increased confidence.

That’s right.  It’s a boy.  The midwives called today with the news of a holiday present – the news that the ultrasound report was conclusive this time.

My son. Our son.  What a beautiful start.

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13 Comments »

  1. Congratulations!

  2. motherbumper said

    Your instincts are strong – congratulations

  3. Suzanne said

    How nice! I love having a boy and a girl.

  4. b*babbler said

    Oh congratulations! What a wonderful early Christmas gift.

    Perfect instincts…

  5. Marla said

    After you told me today, the world turned boy. As i went out, i saw little boys, and their things and I’m so happy you have so much to look forward to. (And I made an imaginary “doink doink” movement with my finger indicating a tiny penis just after I read this post!)

  6. Jana said

    That is so wonderful!
    Little boys have such great love for their mama’s.

  7. Oh boy! Great news. I can totally see you with a little boy.

    How do you think is Alice going to take it? 🙂

  8. kgirl said

    wonderful! you totally just gave me a shiver.
    trust yourself – you are going to be such a great mama to that little boy.

  9. landismom said

    Congratulations!

  10. Jen said

    Oh, I’m so happy for you! Personally I think the older sister, younger brother dynamic is a nice one (not biased at all, of course).

  11. Lisa b said

    Congratulations!
    If I have learned on thing this year it is that mama is always right.

  12. DaniGirl said

    Oh yay! I personally am a big fan of boys – and I’m thrilled for you!! (Your instincts are obviously much better than mine. I’m 0 for 3 on guessing gender!)

  13. adina said

    When I found out I was having G., a friend commented:
    Oedipus, Schmoedipus, so long as he loves his mother.

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